My Apologies

I truly apologize for my post yesterday. I have be dealing with a really bad reaction to the steroids they gave me for my lung infection. I kept telling them that I have a REALLY bad reaction and get very hostile and somewhat violent when on steroids. They told me they really didn't have any other options. So, 'roid rage runs deeply through my veins. Poor Stephen and Jane are taking the brunt of it. Yesterday, Stephen had not gotten much sleep. So, I pretty much refused to go anywhere via car with him. And, Jane had made some suggestions about going out and doing something. I didn't mind her canceling so much as she tried to shove me off on Bill and Stephen instead of just postponing. I was in a mindset where placing me with the two people I was most in a rage with was not her smartest move. That is right! Stephen and Bill get most of my rage directed at them. I don't honestly think Bill notices a difference. But, it really does hurt Stephen.

I really just want to feel better. I see, in my future, a trip to the ER in Columbia. This is not fair, in my opinion. I just want to feel better. Urgent Care says they can not do anything further. My family doctor is unable, for reasons beyond my understanding, to see me. They *meaning Urgent Care* want me to see a Pulmonary specialist... but they cannot refer me to one... has to be my family doctor who WON'T without seeing me, which he won't. So, Urgent Care tells me my only other option is the ER, get better treatment, and they (the ER) can refer me to a Pulmonary specialist. SIGH! I just want the steroid hell to end and I also want to feel like I can breathe. Wish me luck... and probably need to pray the family gets through this in one piece.